From the daily archives: "Tuesday, July 17, 2012"
Have you met Becky yet?
No!?!? well go check her out! I’ll wait.

Don’t you love the book she’s working on for Gracie? I love it! And I love to see my prints there and especially this one.

This quote broke my heart when I first read it. Mainly because I wasn’t living it.
Through grade school and high school I spent many many many hours in the ballet studio. Between ballet class and conditioning classes my doctor was not ever happy with the fact I was small. And then through university I worked as a fitness instructor and personal trainer and had my jaw wired shut every summer. There was a day when I celebrated that I fit into something bigger than a small or extra small.
Now not so much.
When we started talking about starting our family our doctor advised me to gain a bit of weight just to make sure if I did get sick I had enough to lose and still have a healthy pregnancy, so I gained a bit of weight. I knew that I had to give up my perfect image of my body. I knew that it would never be the same again when I saw those two lines. Little did I know how much.
I taught pilates and fitness until the day I went on bedrest – I was supposed to teach that night, but I obviously couldn’t.
So pregnant, not able to workout, let alone take the stairs much, way too much fluid that made me gain 8lbs in one week (hello stretch marks), and a body that thought I was 9 months pregnant when I was barely 7 months along.
Gray was 2 days old and I got hit with pitting edema. My kidneys couldn’t handle all the fluid I was given during my labour, and then effects of the epidural, and not being able to stand much, let alone walk after a bit of a crazy delivery where I wasn’t the main concern (which I’m thankful for don’t get me wrong – I’m so glad they were watching out for Gray). Swollen ankles doesn’t even start to describe how swollen my legs were. I could barely bend my knees and I was starting to get stretch marks on my legs from the amount of fluid. Not a good thing. Our nurse threated that when she came back the next morning I had better have normal sized ankles or she was going to send me to the ER to be admitted, and that would mean I wouldn’t get to see Grayson at all until I was cleared. The treatment for pitting edema – fluids and ice and elevation. You can take over the counter medication, except a new mom can’t take it due to possible complications. So I spent a day with my feet up and ice on my legs, trying as hard as I could not have to be admitted the next day. I didn’t want to miss a day with my baby.
That night I went back to my room and this song was on repeat. 

Has anyone body told you, you’re beautiful
You might agree if you could see what I see
Cuz everything about you is incredible
You should have seen me smile the day that I made you beautiful for me.
I was lying there with my feet up and bags of ice on them, three days after having a baby still looking like I was 7 months pregnant, hadn’t really showered yet, feeling like I was the last thing anyone would want to see, but hearing that God smiled the day he made me because I was beautiful to him. I was beautiful in my pj’s with legs bigger than tree trunks.
When I read this quote a few weeks ago it brought me back to that night, to this song. The world looks at our outer beauty but God looks at our heart. 
If beauty lies in the eye of the beholder 
then I want my life and what’s inside to give him something to behold. 
I want a heart that’s captivating.
Our beauty is our heart and our life, and God created us in his image. We are a beautiful reflection of God’s love, so let’s live it, and start believing it.
I love that this is part of Gracie’s book to remind her that she is a beautiful reflection.

Thanks so much for sharing Becky!

 

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