From the monthly archives: "October 2012"

That is what life it right now. Limited.

We saw our OB on Wednesday and I am so happy with her and have a great repore with her and I am really happy we were able to squeak into her schedule. She started me on the same medication I was on with Gray to help keep this babE in there as long as possible. And we’re on “limited activity”, I can do about as much as I need to in order to take care of Gray every day but that’s about it. I vacuumed the main floor yesterday, it needed it and Brian has been out of town this week. And I might clean a bathroom today since I’m sitting on my butt most of the day because the nanny is here. But we’ll have to see.

Planning life around what I can and can’t do is not easy. The last bit we’ve been doing what needs to be done when it needs to be done. If I need to get groceries, or run around and pay bills, we just go. Now we’ll be planning out weeks, what days do we go shopping. Or if we wait and Brian gets to go shopping with Gray and I can have a nap.

But I’m going to look at the positive. I’m not on bedrest yet, and I can still do things, just in a limited capacity. They’re not saying we won’t be on bedrest, possibly in as soon as 4 weeks, but hopefully the limited activity keeps us off bedrest as long as possible. And as hard as bedrest will be, I know there’s a purpose and every day past 32 weeks that we make it will be such a blessing. So we’ll do what needs to be done and pray that we’re able to go full term.

And this is just a season. I’m excited at the thought that maybe I’ll be bringing my babE home with me a few days after he/she’s born, instead of a month in the hospital; that I’ll be able to snuggle babE whenever I want instead of just on good days. And knowing that we have a better picture of what happened with Grayson, and we’re trying as hard as we can to make sure those things don’t have as big an effect. And that we’re being watched so closely.

Well off to work I go. The nanny is here for the morning and I’m hoping to get at least one page of my to do list done. Influence is next week and I have 5 days to get everything ready to go. 6:00am on Wednesday will come quickly and I’ll be on the road heading to Indiana.

 

 

I haven’t talked much about it here, not sure why, but next week I’m taking a 5 day break from being Jac the mom and wife, to get to be Jac the blogger and I’m heading to Influence! I’m so so excited to meet some of my blogging friends and give them big hugs and see them in real life, instead of just on Google+. Last week I got to have coffee with a new friend who’s heading to Influence too, and I’m so excited to see at least one familiar face there and to have coffee again after we get home and talk all about what we learned. I’m also really excited to just have some me time in the car on the way there. It’s about 8.5 hours to get there according to Google maps but I anticipate more around the 10 hour mark with crossing the border and coffee stops.

 

So for those who are going to Influence and want to know a bit more about me. Here goes:

  • Š I go by Jac, without the K. I guess if you want you can call me Jacqueline, but umm. Just Jac is fine.
  •  I’m short – not PintSizedMama short, but still I’m only 5’2 and although I’m good with my height, I often feel like a mini person next to Brian. (I’m wearing 6” heels in that picture and yes Brian is what we call Freakishly tall)
  • Š  I am almost always chewing gum or sucking on a candy.
  • Š  I am always fidgeting. ALWAYS! I used to joke in high school that it was how I stayed so skinny. (if only I could claim that now)
  • Š  I am very particular about my pens, so if you ask to borrow a pen, you’ll get a different pen than the one I use. Took me 4 years to find them again and I’m not give them up. Lol (ask JenniferInTexas – we discussed this for almost 20 minutes)
  • Š  I’m so so so SO excited that I am going to be part of the Sashes Market! I am more excited to hear about how my mini prints and journals bless the women at the conference.
  • Š  My wardrobe is a little limited with the whole babE2 bump not being super big, but also being too big for my normal clothes. Maybe I can find some new clothes at the mall!
  • Š  I am missing coffee so much right now, and I may cheat and have a cup of half caf or two while I’m with you all.
  • Š  I will be bringing at least one powercord/powerbar if not 2 or 3 with me. I also have one packed in my hospital bag for if my dad gets the call too. Once you live with an electrician you can never go back. And you make instant friends
  • Š  I am such an introvert and I have to use all those drama class skills to fake that I’m super outgoing and social. I’m trying to get out of my shell a bit, but it’s not easy, but I am so thankful for all the amazing women who’ll be there and will make me feel super welcome.
  • Š  I will be spending most my time sitting. So if I don’t stand up to give you a great big hug forgive me. Instructions from my Doc are to rest as much as possible with a 20 month old underfoot. So I guess since G will be at home with Brian, that means I should be sitting the whole time, or at least when I’m not out getting some coffee!

 

 

I am so so so excited to meet all of you face to face. You have all blessed me so much already I can’t imagine how much more I can be blessed, but I know I will be. I’m excited for some time away by myself, but also I’m excited for all the things God is going to do in me over the weekend, but also in everyone else.

 

 

 

Nadine is here this morning and I am so blessed by this girl! I feel like every word she’s sharing was written just for me. And this week, this month, this year I needed it.

 

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Lately Jesus has been slowing me down.

See, I like going fast.

I like walking fast. I like being efficient and quick. I love to get things done. I love busy days with early starts and late nights, meaningfully long conversations, and much laughter.

He’s been slowing me down.

It was a few months ago when I felt God slowly stirring in my heart to do some changing.

The kind and gracious King that He is, He slowly and patiently explained some new things to my heart.

He started telling me (more or less) one answer to basically any prayer when I would asking Him something:

 

wait

 

He started telling me (more or less) one thing when I would get stressed:

 

slow down

 

He started ripping at the weeds that had wrapped their way around my heart.

 

One of the things He told me was hard on me:

 

Quiet

Quiet your loudness.

Quiet your anxiety.

Quiet your stress.

Quiet your anger.

Quiet your heart.

Quiet your loneliness.

 

Quiet yourself, daughter and rest in me.

He’s also reintroducing me to Jesus.

 

The Jesus who:

…Didn’t consider equality to God as something to be grasped…

…But humbled himself…

…Even to a cross…

 

Sanctification is not fun nor is it easy. It is, however, what I desire. The reason being because ultimately, I serve the King of Kings.

 

So if He calls me to something, whether my heart thinks it is easy or hard, I’m going to walk in it.

 

 

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Pop over to Nadine’s blog A Secondary Heartbeat and leave her some love. And this girl has some of the most blessed tweets ever! so follow here there too @nadinewouldsay

Back in March after doing a lot of reading and thinking and praying I really felt that there was a project that I should do for 2013. Something that God had put on my heart and something that I knew I could learn from and help others learn from too. So after 6 months of praying and planning I am at the point where I’m ready to share it all with you, and ask for some help.

 

So here’s the big plan. God put on my heart some characteristics that a Godly wife has, and how I can work on them myself but also come alongside other wives and women to work on those characteristics in practical ways. So sat and meditated and prayed and God put certain characteristics on my heart that should be the focus; 12 characteristics, one a month for the year.

 

This is where the Help Wanted comes in. I want to pair with one or two with you every month for the year to share with our readers what characteristic we’re working on, our goals or plan for the month and then how we feel we did, and something maybe we could work on more.

 

Here are the characteristics for us to focus on:

  • Sincerity
  • Attentiveness
  • Enthusiasm
  • Obedience
  • Diligence/Determination – I feel these go hand in hand in marriage
  • Contentment
  • Honour
  • Faith
  • Discretion
  • Initiative
  • Joyfulness
  • Patience

 

Here’s what I’m looking for from you. It’s a one month commitment, with two posts a month on the first and last Monday of the month. The last post will be a link up to see how our readers felt about the characteristics and see their how they worked on that characteristic.

 

I would love if you would pray about it and see if this is a project you want to be a part of, and if you feel that it is, send me an email. If you want more details or want to chat about it a bit more before you can me a decision, I would love to chat. Also, even if you’re not married but would like to participate please let me know. I fully believe that even before we meet our future husband we are preparing to be his wife. I have a few characteristics in mind just for you single girls who want to particiapte too. Email me at babEblessings@rogers.com

 

Have a blessed day! And I can’t wait to hear from you.

 

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